Today I need to take a break from my Sweet & Simple Christmas Series. I’ll resume tomorrow, but my heart is broken right now. I’m trying to make sense of something that has no sense. And I’m grieving with those who are grieving due to the horrific shootings last week in Newtown, Connecticut.
And so today, it just didn’t feel right to act as if nothing happened.
As I’ve cried my own tears and mourned with those who lives will never be the same, God continued to bring this passage to mind from Matthew 2:
“When Herod realized that he had been outwitted by the Magi, he was furious, and he gave orders to kill all the boys in Bethlehem and its vicinity who were two years old and under, in accordance with the time he had learned from the Magi. 17 Then what was said through the prophet Jeremiah was fulfilled:
18 “A voice is heard in Ramah,
weeping and great mourning,
Rachel weeping for her children
and refusing to be comforted,
because they are no more.”
This is the world Jesus came to 2,000 years ago. A world where evil people hurt innocent children. A world of greed, anger and murder. A world of grief that nothing can assuage.
And this is the world today.
What happened in Sandy Hook Elementary School makes no sense. We will never understand how someone could do this. Oh how I wish I could wrap my arms around a mother missing her beautiful daughter and bring her comfort. Or a father who will never throw a ball with his son. Or children who are missing a parent tonight. I feel so helpless.
In the midst of so many questions there are two things that bring me comfort:
1) God will avenge the innocent. Romans 12 has some amazing insight for us. If you have time today, please read it. Verse 19 says, “Do not take revenge, my dear friends, but leave room for God’s wrath, for it is written: ‘It is mine to avenge; I will repay,’ says the Lord.”
I’ll be very transparent with you, one of my initial reactions upon hearing about the killings was a desire for revenge. Sorrow was there initially, but immediately after that I was angry. Apparently God has given me a bit of a warrior spirit. There is something very fierce that rises up within me when the vulnerable are attacked. But I know I can’t let my mind sit on those thoughts in this instance. I must set them aside and trust that God has got this one under control. Justice will be done.
2) Jesus was the answer 2,000 years ago and He’s the answer today. Jesus is our hope. Jesus gave us access to the Father who controls all things. Jesus paid our debt so we can look forward to heaven. Jesus reminds us this is not our home. Jesus is the hope that we will be reunited with those who have gone ahead of us to be with God. And Jesus is our healer … emotionally, spiritually and physically.
I know this blog post is inadequate. Please forgive me if it sounds like I know anything. I just know I’m lost without Jesus.
Please join me in praying for the families who have an empty bed in their homes today and Christmas presents that won’t be unwrapped. And for all those who are traumatized by what they saw, heard and experienced.
It’s right to mourn with those who are mourning. And that’s what I’m doing today.
In His love,
P.S. A friend of mine, Rachel Wojnarowski, is making her ebook, A Christmas Devotional for the Hurting, available for free this week. It’s in e-book form and you can read about it by clicking here. Maybe this might be a resource if your heart is hurting too.
“Do not be overcome by evil, but overcome evil with good.” Romans 12:21