Yesterday I shared a bit of how God started to take my faith from following rules to following Jesus. That journey continues today by the way, as it seems my natural bent is towards the safety of rules and routine. But God’s way (at least for me) seems to continually push me beyond my comfort zone, and into a world where I have to trust Him because all the safety nets have been removed.
The biggest push came 15 years ago in the shape of a move we thought was for my husband’s job. It wasn’t. It was for me.
It started when my husband’s company closed their Phoenix office. They offered to relocate us to Denver, but we didn’t want to move. (No offense to Denver – it’s a nice place – but I didn’t want to live where it could possibly snow. And at that time my husband didn’t like the Denver Broncos, so it was a double whammy against that city … we are quite mature like that.) So my husband started looking for another job.
An old co-worker of his had moved to Charlotte to manage an office there, and when he found out Tod needed a job, he invited him to come check it out. All expenses paid. My husband went saying he wasn’t really interested. He came back wanting to move in two months.
But I didn’t. And oh how I had a list of reasons why not. Our boys were 3, 5 & 7 and I couldn’t go to Target by myself with them. My parents lived just minutes away, my sisters were close, I loved my job, we loved our church … and the list continued.
There were many heated debates, but somehow in the midst of my tirades God spoke to me. It was one of those statements I would have NEVER said to myself at that time, so I was sure it was Him. God said: Your husband has never demanded his way, you need to say yes.
The Holy Spirit did some quick conviction, and I said yes between gritted teeth. It wasn’t at all the heart attitude God wanted, cause there was a lot (and that’s an understatement) of resentment and anger under the surface.
There’s so much more to the story, but I’ll shorten it to say, my dear husband agreed to come back to Phoenix in two years. So I decided I could suffer though anything for God for two years. Including moving to North Carolina.
Oh, I should tell you my husband also convinced my by telling me it was in the south, and he knew I wanted to visit places like Charleston and Savannah. I wasn’t sure North Carolina was in the south, because it had “North” in its name … duh!
But he said “Do you think Virginia is in the south.” “Yes,” I answered. “Well, it’s south of Virginia.” That did it … I was out of excuses. Plus I had the Holy Spirit fussing at me. So we packed up and moved.
I’m going to fast-track this now, past the many tears when I was lost on those crazy streets that changed names three times in a mile, and when I sat at home with no friends, to how God connected me quickly with Proverbs 31.
Within weeks I sat in a church where Lysa TerKeurst gave her testimony. That same week I heard her on the radio. And for the second time in my life, I heard God’s voice clearly: Call her and volunteer.
It was so clear, I had to obey. Somehow the church gave me her phone number (just to be clear, that wouldn’t happen now) and I called her up. I remember feeling so nervous my voice was shaky, and in a bluster of words I told her how I had heard of her, that I had just moved to Charlotte, I had a degree in Journalism and I wondered if she needed any volunteers.
She said they’d been praying for someone with a degree in Journalism.
That started the greatest transformation of my heart I’d ever experienced. I came to Charlotte resentful, angry and dishonoring my husband in my heart. I left Charlotte (two years later) and returned to Phoenix, with a new marriage.
I came to Charlotte with plans of how I was going to get my life, my career, my service to God, back on track once I got home, I left with full submission to God’s plans – which were and are SOOOOO much better than mine.
At Proverbs 31 Ministries, I learned by my home was my first line of ministry. I learned God was looking at my heart more than my achievements. I learned God was watching to see how well I managed what He had gave me – my home, my children, my relationship with my husband – before He would trust me with more.
Proverbs 31 Ministries not only changed my life, it changed my marriage, my husband and my children. We went on to adopt two little girls from Africa, and it would not have happened were it not for Proverbs 31 Ministries, under the leadership of Lysa TerKeurst. P31 changed two little African girls’ lives too.
Today, I’d love for you to join us as we continue to change women’s hearts around the world with the Good News of God’s love and with the truth about who we are in Christ. It’s life-changing. It’s family-changing.
We’ve put some information on our new website that will tell you more. But I wanted to share my story first. If you have time today or this week, please take a few minutes to watch this video and to find out more about how to partner with us.
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In His love,
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